In Me or Through Me

I woke up this morning with an incredible thought.  “Do I want God to do more IN me or THROUGH me?”  Crazy question, right?  But I have been searching my heart over the last couple of months.  I have had a lot of open doors (and even some closed ones) and I have truly been evaluating my ministry – because I truly desire to be where and what God wants me to be.  But open doors are not necessarily holy doors – they can become distractions from the main reason of living – “what God is doing in me?”

I have addicted behaviors.  In fact, we all do.  In some way we are all addicted to something.  Often I find myself enjoying what God is doing through me too much.  I know, I know.  But it can become nothing more than an adrenaline rush for our spiritual pride.  I don’t want to be addicted to what I do … I want to be addicted to the one who redeemed my sin filled life!

“Without HIM I can do nothing” (John 15:5)

It doesn’t say without ministry I can do nothing.  No.  It says without HIM – Jesus – I can’t do ministry.  I have to be divinely connected to Jesus.  He is the source of everything.  My prayer is pretty simple – “God do something IN me – something new, fresh and bold.”  My heart is screaming today for Jesus – nothing more, nothing less.

Don’t substitute DOING Ministry for BEING with Jesus!


  1. Katherine says:

    And that right there “pop” is why I have so much respect for you! So honest and real. Thanks for calling yourself to the carpet so others can learn through it. You my friend are a great man of God and I am honored to know you! Praying God continues to do amazing things in you and that He keeps you focused and continues to give you wisdom.

  2. Mari says:

    It’s amazing how God works in such of mysterious ways……….. I have been searching for ways to feel complete and I had come to the conclusion that the only time I feel that my life has meaning is when “God is in me”. I have been searching to see what is that I should be doing to serve the Lord and to make my life more worth living; but unfortunately, I haven’t found the right guidance. But thanks to this search, I found your church and your website. I haven listening to your sermons and follow your blogs and today …. God had confirmed to me that you are the person that can help me spiritually.
    Today, you had express so beautifully what I have felt for so long and see that you’re a man of God. After visiting so many churches and listing to so many pastors or ministers , I can see that the Lord has put you in the right place and see that the Lord is with you and if you enjoy it ……is because you see how having the Lord in your life had help others get close to him.
    God bless you and help you lead more people to his is kingdom.

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