In Me or Through Me
I woke up this morning with an incredible thought. “Do I want God to do more IN me or THROUGH me?” Crazy question, right? But I have been searching my heart over the last couple of months. I have had a lot of open doors (and even some closed ones) and I have truly been evaluating my ministry – because I truly desire to be where and what God wants me to be. But open doors are not necessarily holy doors – they can become distractions from the main reason of living – “what God is doing in me?”
I have addicted behaviors. In fact, we all do. In some way we are all addicted to something. Often I find myself enjoying what God is doing through me too much. I know, I know. But it can become nothing more than an adrenaline rush for our spiritual pride. I don’t want to be addicted to what I do … I want to be addicted to the one who redeemed my sin filled life!
“Without HIM I can do nothing” (John 15:5)
It doesn’t say without ministry I can do nothing. No. It says without HIM – Jesus – I can’t do ministry. I have to be divinely connected to Jesus. He is the source of everything. My prayer is pretty simple – “God do something IN me – something new, fresh and bold.” My heart is screaming today for Jesus – nothing more, nothing less.
Don’t substitute DOING Ministry for BEING with Jesus!